A Kick to the List

October 5, 2008

I have several dozen regular readers on this site; I’m not sure who they are or what drove them here and I know that 60 people a day does not a blog-star make.  But for those who are following the journey, I apologize for being offline for a while.

About a month ago my wife and I experienced the loss of an unborn child.  It was quite mellowing and if not for the incredible supports our families – both through blood and through the church – have provided I could see how so many people could end up in a world of hurt that lasts for ages when they lose a baby.

It is hard coming back and seeing things about family and children and growing our family as things that I want to chase, and I really wanted to make sure that this whole thing meant the same to me.

I know that we are taken care of (everything you need has been provided) and there is nothing on the list that will change the course of humanity or make my kids love me more or make my marriage stronger or even necessarily make a difference in anyone else’s life but my own.  Though I just started this journey, I need to make sure that I’m actually tracking somewhere that my kids can be looked after, that I connect with and the community inside and outside of my church life, that my wife and I find peace and happiness and where something bigger than pain lives.

We were so blessed to have the love shared with us as we struggled with the loss.  I guess what I’m looking for now is a way to share that experience with other people, and that in chasing this list that I actually find ways to do that.

Baby Chambers, you are with your Father now and I can’t wait to meet you when I get home…


One Response to “A Kick to the List”

  1. John McLeod Says:

    Once again I just want to say how sorry Annette and I are to hear about your loss. It is hard enough dealing with diabetes but this something most of us cannot comprehend. Our prayers are with your family.

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